:: Irasshai!! ::

Konnichiwa to all of you who actually read my crap! and Irasshai ^^U i hope u all have fun visiting my blog.. this actually is my 3rd. blog (i really liked the last one but i deleted it by mistake ¡-¡U)and i guess this is gonna be about the same.. same stuff same everything... Feel free to say w/e u wanna say in the tagboard, i really appreciate your comments and Arigatou for keepin' in touch!

:: About the layout ::

It took me a long time to find the right layout... i've looked everywhere but none of the ones i've seen was "perfect".. even this one, i mean, i really like it, it's simple and kawaii ^^U but i'm still looking for the right one.. the one that's gonna take my breath away... maybe i'll end up doing it myself.. who knows... but right now that's impossible.. i really suck @ ps *tears* NEways.. this layout features Sesshomaru, Jyaken and Rin from Inuyasha.. i really like this layout cuz it's so simple and the colors and picture are really nice.. btw.. i edited the top.. that means i'm the one who wrote "look at the stars.. they're shining just for me" and of course i know those lights in the picture aren't stars..they're fireflies but since i hate insects and really like stars i thought i'd just change that...
Why did i choose that title?? Well.. right now i'm in a place where i need light to shatter the darknes around me and that's what stars do, they force you to stare at them when u look up to the sky and make you forget about the darkness night brings... and about the "they're shining just for me" part.. well i just need to feel special right now and i wanna believe they come out at night bcuz they're worried about me and they wanna see me looking at them just to let me know everything's gonna be fine, they're taking care of me and lighting my way.
So.. that's pretty much it, there was a whole story behind this layout huh?.. lol..
Bottom line?.. i'm glad i chose this layout! ^^U And isn't my counter kawaii as hell????... i just luv it! It features Inuyasha himself... yeah.. i had to have him somewhere.. =)
And also my avatar features Kagome... i'm still trying to get Miroku somwhere.. i really like him!!... he's such a funny char!! i'll keep looking..

:: I just wanna say.. ::

Good luck to me!!!!



So yeah.. i stopped writting.. and suddenly today i felt nostalgic and here i am..
I really have nothing to talk about so.. what am i doing?
Life's boring when it comes to me. I should be in Kara right now but i guess they didn't need me today... wich is fine but i really dunno what to do with this time.. i could always go watch something but i don't feel like it.. i'm actually kinda bored and i guess that's why i'm here... i might start working on a new blog soon.. dunno yet.. it's always a pain.. so many things to do..
and why am i suddenly thinking of work? ugh... need a few days off.. more like a few weeks hehe...
NEways.. i've said nothing but crap and meaningless boring things but that's my mood tonight so i really don't care.. i have faith in me... to come with something inspirational and deep.. bleh.. that's not gonna happen and i'm ok with it.. i guess i'll just go and see what i can do in wow... actually it's kinda sad.. i'm so addicted to it i can't really think without it.. wow i love you!!!! ><
psh what a nerd!

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Wow!.. ltns (yes i'm talking to my bloggie ^^) it's just that i always do the same... i say ok! now this time is for real.. i'm gonna keep this place updated and then all i add is 1 entry and that's it.. so i'm just gonna save all that shit and just talk about my usual crap.. and when am i gonna be here again???.. who knows!!!.. and who cares!!
I've been playing WOW for a while now... i'm kinda addicted to it, it's such a great game!.. i wish i was better at it *sigh*.. but i guess that's just the way things are... it's my nature... i'm not a gamer.. i wish i was though...I've been playing almost on a daily basis since april i think and right now i'm not even lvl 30 (almost there) so i guess it's gonna take a whole while to get to lvl 60 plus i need to work on my honor and stuff like that.. i kinda need assistance or something.. this is so sad!!!!
The good thing is i'm enjoying it and that's what it is all about.. everytime i play i have a great time and im so eager to learn! I WANNA GO HOME AND PLAY!!!!! ><
I finally finished reading "The Soulforge".. that took me several months! wich is weird bcuz it was Dragonlance.. next time i'll be saying "..and 6 months later i finally finished reading HP" WTF???!!!!.. i can't let that happen.. and talking about HP i think i'm gonna start reading HP&HBP again.. not so sure.. we'll see..
I don't wanna complain right now although there are several things going through my mind wich sux bcuz usually i'm doing great with my same old boring routine.. but there are some things i just can't ignore like i wish i could.. i don't even wanna think so i might as well just go.
And let's hope my next entry appears pretty soon.
I need more coffee u.u

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I really don't feel like writting so i dunno what i'm doing here.. i guess i felt nostalgic although i don't think i'm feeling a single thing right now.. neways.. my blog just came to my mind and i said.. what the hell i might as well write a few lines...
Not many changes in my mind.. now if we talk about my surroundings that's a diff story.. i think i'm moving forward, i've been trying to get out of the big black hole i was in and believe it or not i'm succeeding and changes are coming my way =)
.. could it be that i'm finally getting closer to the peace i've always wanted??.. hard to say and hard to reach too but at least everything's getting better and i'm happy about it...
Maybe i'm making no sense right now but i really don't care i just wanted to stop by and make something like an act of presence.. i've had my blog neglected for too long..
This is pretty much it for today.. like i said i don't feel like writting and i might end up getting rid of this entry.. who knows.. but for now this is all i have to say..
OMG i'm sooooooo boring!!!
You are lame girl! bleh..

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Sitting here and drinking tea.. i was actually enjoying the moment and to tell the truth i can't find a single problem when my mind isn't working.. but then that nasty moment when the time freezes and i realize i exist comes and all those tremors that make me feel so tired and exhausted appear.. this isn't good.. i wonder how does it feel to have peace and know it is there bcuz of you, not bcuz of someone else's giving it to you, something like your own personal peace.. a lil' bit of a great inner feeling you can call your own... am i ever gonna feel that?.. hopes come and go, and i'm still here waiting.. maybe some day i'll be able to say "I'm brain dead and I'm so freakin' happy!!!!"
NEways, it's been a tiresome day, or something like that.. i've practically done nothing and i feel tired and i just wanna get this day over with although at the same time i don't wanna lose my time sleeping (i really wish my android side'd flow out pretty soon, take this stupid human side away pls pls plsss)
Aaaaah!.. wonder what this life has in store for me.. i have too many questions and doubts and fears and i hate it!!!... why can't i just keep going? fearless, facing whatever comes without stupid feelings?.. looks like i can't stop bitching, i think it's a bad day to write.. i just thought i would stop by and say something.. since it's been a while.. but me being tired isn't a good thing.. looks like i need some rest...
Sayonara!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... <-- yup, that's me resting u.u

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Ok I finally read it all. I'm done.. and of course i have to speak up!!.. let's make a quick summary of my day... woke up late.. watched anime.. went out to buy food.. did laundry.. watched more anime and finished reading HP&HBP (while at this restoring the computer.. oh! and i'm very proud to say i fucked up the dvd-rom tray thingy.. w/e.. so now i have to buy a new one.. aren't i lucky as hell??.. it's like one thing after the other.. wonder how to wipe off black clouds...)neways...
Talking about the book.. i regret to say I'm getting worse and worse.. and now I'm capable to completely understand Masami Tsuda.. looks like it's a woman's thing.. the older you get the more you cry (when i read what u said I even laughed at you hehe.. but right now it's like OMG!!! I'm like that too!!!! =S) I have no idea how I finished reading the book.. I mean.. I literally cried my eyes out!.. my vision was completely blurred.. Everything started when Dumbledore died and by the time i reached the funeral I couldn't even distinguish the letters; so to be honest I'm kinda amazed @ my reading skills.. took me a while (bcuz of all the tears) but I made it! =)
The thing is.. Dumbledore's death didn't come as a shock to me.. I knew he was gonna die but still.. I felt like he was leaving me =( I swear I still can't believe it.. which takes me to my impressions of the book.. and here I go:
First of all.. I can't help but hate Snape for killing Dumbledore.. even though I'm pretty sure he did it on Dumbledore's command.. thanks to Occlumency of course.. that's why I think Dumbledore said .. pls, Snape.. pls...right before Snivellus used the Avada Kedavra.. and I'm also pretty sure.. Snape made the Unbreakable Vow with Narcissa on Dumbledore's request.. I mean... he must be spying on Voldemort.. I don't think he's really betrayed Dumbledore.. it's just not possible.
About Harry & Ginny.. EEEEWWWW??!!!!.. I didn't like the idea of them being a couple.. the way he kissed her was kinda stupid and omg! when i read she was acting like a vamp I didn't wanna believe it was true but SHE IS SUUUUUCH A VAMP!!!!.. going out with one guy and then another and then Harry.. plus the way Harry started to realize he had feelings for her...i felt JK Rowling was forcing things.. it all happened too soon.. too sudden.. nope.. I didn't like it at all.. just like the fact that she made Ron go out with Lavender.. I swear I wanted to burn the book!!!!.. she made Ron act like a stupid lil' kid and to be honest I don't think that's his style.. ok I understand he's 16 almost 17 when all that happened but still.. he's not the kind of person who would do that.. I swear I was disgusted by that kind of behavior.. and about Hermy.. what can I say??? I just love her to death!!!! I think she took matters in a mature sorta way.. we couldn't expect less from her.. even the canaries part.. she acted like a lady.. and of course she was annoyed by Ron's disgusting behavior.. I mean.. who wouldn't when the guy you like acts like a jerk?????.. what I liked is that Ron dumped Lavender (of course that was gonna happen sooner or later) and I almost cried (in fact I was crying haha.. but not bcuz of this.. I would've had to cry even more wich I think it would've made me stop reading since I don't think i could've taken any more tears...)when Ron is hugging Hermy and stroking her hair while she's crying on his shoulder @ Dumbledore's funeral.. that was soooooo sweet!!!! and of course i re-read that part a thousand times haha!!!! I just can't get enough of 'em!!
Of course i loooooved! the fact that Harry dumped Ginny.. even though it's for her own sake and Harry is just trying to protect her.. but still.. I'm glad they're no longer together!!! yay!!! ^^
And just when I calmed myself a lil' bit I had to read about Tonks and Lupin holding hands.. omg!!!!!!! that's soooooo freaking sweet!!!!! I started crying again! hahahahahahaha... it's like JK Rowling read my mind!!! I soooo wanted 'em together!!! I'm really really really happy!!!!!! I feel like jumping right now.. every time I remember that they're now a couple I can't help but feel happy and excited!!! YAAAAAAAAYYY!!!!... (sorry about what's about to come but...) **Tonks and Lupin sitting on a tree.. k-i-s-s-i-n-g!!!** bwaaaaahahahahaha!!! I'M A LOSER!! and I really don't care.. they made me happy when I felt sooooo sad!!! I just hope and pray JK Rowling doesn't kill any of them in the next book.. ONEGAI!!!!!! ><
About Draco.. he's maturing.. becoming a man.. and of course he's gonna take his dad's path.. that was kinda obvious and I liked the way he acted at the end of everything.. the fact that he couldn't kill Dumbledore.. he's always been kinda a coward and just like Dumbledore said.. he's not a killer...I think he lacks evil.. he's just going with the flow.. his flow.. i mean he's been surrounded by evil since the day he was born.
I hate the fact that Bill and Fleur are getting married.. what came as a shock to me was that Bill got wounded by Greyback and now he's just another Moody but with 2 eyes and legs of his own.. so sad! and I really thought Fleur was gonna cancel the marriage... she didn't.. so I guess she's not as shallow as I thought she was..
Neways.. I think that's it when it comes to HP&HBP.. oh no! one more thing!!!!.. It was really stupid how Snape said he's the Half Blood Prince and left.. I mean.. no further explanation or anything.. I hope we can get some answer on the next book.. Oh yeah! and wtf is up with Harry, Ron & Hermy not going back to Hogwarts for their last year??? first Fred & George and now them.. looks like education is no longer important?? (omg!!! I just pulled a Hermy hahahaha).. I just wonder if they're gonna close Hogwarts.. hopefully not.. even though I really don't see Professor Mcgonagall as headmistress.. oh wellz.. I'll just have to wait for the last book to see how everything turns up.. Can hardly wait!!! >< .. and my next step when it comes to books.. I'm gonna start reading a lil' bit of Sartre right now.. "the Nausea" awaits for me.. after that (it'll prolly take me a couple of days to finish reading it) I think I'll start reading "The Soulforge" to continue with my Dragonlance saga.. after that maybe a lil' Bryce.. dunno yet.. I'll see...

Time to go to bed.. at least when I'm asleep i don't think.. gosh i'm getting worse.. no more writting to me and maybe more sleeping.. although i hate sleeping.. aaaaagggrrrrr nothing pleases me haha... neways.. sayonara!!!

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I spent the whole evening reading =) i have such cool hobbies, i swear! i love 'em all.. the thing is.. after 5 hours of me being bedazzled by JKR's brilliant mind I decided to take a lil' break.. and here I am, trying to take better care of my blog =) Don't really know if I'm doing a good job, I'm trying at least but to tell the truth I'm pretty much happy with the way this is turning out.. it occured to me i should have a space to say w/e i want whenever i want to and that's the way "I just wanna say.." was born.. and right now... there's my lil' shrine to a great, loving guy: Sirius Black =).. sadly I'm sure it's gonna change soon.. to be occupied by a very wise, sensitive, caring, admirable man.. i don't wanna see you die =(
I added a couple of fanlistings and i spent quite some time working on a pic but when i tried to upload it, the site was on maintenance so i couldn't do it and now i have to wait.. oh wellz.. I'm used to waiting so no biggie.
And today it came to me the idea that I'm actually missing something every time I look in a mirror.. there must definitely be a sign saying "I LOVE KIDS" hanging somewhere.. but you just wait 'til i find it!!! (and I dunno who I'm talking to.. i kinda never do.. bleh!)
Why do kids come to me?? Why do they think i actually enjoy their company if I'm ignoring 'em??... Today it was scary!! I actually moved around the whole house trying to avoid 2 (I was gonna say stupid but that would be just mean!)... ummm... looks like i don't care... umm.. what? i really don't care?? ha!!.. damn! I'm mean when it comes to kids.. ok ok, I'll say it (can't argue with myself) 2 STUPID KIDS but they wouldn't let me go!.. why????? I have no idea!!!!... this life is full of mysteries... I'll keep my eyes open, there must be something on me I'm sure.. it's not like this is the first time this happens, every single time there's kids around me... EVERY SINGLE BLOODY TIME!!!.. yucks!!
Let's get a lil' wunny-ish and analyze me (just a lil' bit).. it's kinda funny the way I'm feeling right now, been feeling like this since yesterday I think.. it's like I'm alive bcuz I'm breathing but to be honest I don't feel alive at all.. when I said i wanted to be a walking corpse I didn't mean it this way!! but then again I can't complain and I can't ask for something to make me feel alive, last time I did I got myself entangled in a sea of disillusionment & pain and i really don't wanna go through all of that again, even though I'm really REALLY thankful for the way things happened but still.. enough suffering and bull.. but then again I still gotta suffer for a while bcuz right now all I have is futures and pasts mixed up, while a fluffy lil' guy and a banned magic user fight for their present to become a reality.
Final change of subject.. looking up at my calendar I can see a nasty day is coming pretty soon... aaaaaahhhh! the beauty of being alone!! ^^ even though I'm sure I'll talk to my parents that day so I don't think I'll be alone 24 hours that day.. more like 23 =) (I kinda feel sorry for myself ha-ha!.. isn't that sad?.. ummmm...nope!.. I really don't care.. oh wellz!)
And I think it's time for me to go to bed.. even though I don't feel sleepy at all.. but since I have to work in like 7 hours I better go and try to get some sleep...
I really wish I didn't have to sleep at all... maybe an hour or 2.. that's plenty!!
And now I'm actually able to say it: "OVER & OUT" DAMMIT!!!!!!!!.. yeah baby!

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I've let too much time slip by.. geez!!! i need to pay more attention to my dear blog, it's just that sometimes i don't feel like writting.. too many things in my head.. can't wait 'til i get some peace.. sadly that's gonna take some time.. how can i not hate the world sometimes?.. but then again.. it's also shown me so many beautiful things i can't help but love it..
And what's up with songs and it's amazing power to change your mood at will?.. seems like i'm able to fight it this time... good.. i'm getting better.. so i'm not as weak as i thought i was.. interesting...
And yes.. i have nothing to say.. it's true i feel numb so i'm kinda gone but also here.. funny way of complicate this simple feeling, sometimes it makes life interesting.. sometimes it gives headaches so i don't wanna take a chance on the second option and i just might as well go
I'll try to keep updating this place as often as possible.. nothing else to say.. i'm a goner.
..and i still need to remember what ppl say when they finish talking on a walkie talkie damn!!!!!


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Here's one more test i just took... omg! i'm sooo happy.. i'm a maniac killer *tears*.. I'LL KILL YOU ALL!!!

You are a maniac
killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they
have or haven't done. You still want to kill
them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun.
Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe
you have some sort of mental problems or you
are this way because of previous deep scars,
only you know. But now you are sadistic and
maybe you only like to see a special group of
people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are
not the most social person in the bunch and
people think you are weird. That bothers you
somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself
with daydreaming about killing them. After all,
they have no idea what's coming.

Main weapon: Explosives and torture
equpiment
Quote: "Insanity: a perfect
rational adjustment to an insane world" -
R.D. Lang
Facial expression: Wicked smile

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
brought to you by Quizilla
Also took this one... that i'm an agel i already know hehe.. but looks like i'm more than just a simple angel...

You are a fallen angel of persecussion. You have
fallen because of your mind becoming
increasingly disturbed and dark. This has
happened because of what you have experienced
in your life. Things that have happened in your
life have been painful and difficult to
tolerate which has left you suffering. Your
soul is slowly decaying as you somehow cannot
escape what's happened. You are beingining (or
you havn't already) to lose hope that things
could get better.

Quote:
"Life hurts more than death. When you die
the pain is
gone"

Element:Night
Emotion:Anguish/Depression

What type of Fallen Angel are you? [beautiful + dark pics]
brought to you by Quizilla

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So here's a test i took today.. erm... tonight.. and i still can't believe i got wings.. no dooubt about it.. i'm an angel!! lmao =)


If you were an anime character the first thing
people would recognize about you would be your
wings. Having wings as your primary
distinguishing feature shows that you are
someone who holds to your beliefs (whatever
they may be) and yet, you are not afraid of
change either. You are a thoughtful person
with a tendency to see beyond what most people
perceive, and are quite open-minded towards new
and unusual ideas. Most likely you are quiet
and unobtrusive, especially in unfamiliar
situations, because you prefer to observe.

What Would be your Most Distinguishing Physical Feature as an Anime Character? (anime pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla



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How is it possible to have it all and still feel empty?.. Today, for the first time in my life i wished i was dead.
..And now that i think about it, with that idea finally gone from my mind.. it's actually scary.. i mean, i've had that feeling loads of times throughout my whole life and the closest i've ever been to actually evaporate my soul from this plane is when i cut my wrists but not to kill my body but to feel pleasure and after that, the time i took several pills to dissapear.. and i did for a while but i re-appeared with my eyes wide open to this world...
But today it was different.. it wasn't like i wanted to end everything.. it was more like i needed it, i had this urge to do it and i still don't understand how i could stop myself.. i wanted to hurt my body, not to give me pleasure but to force it to stop existing... i'll prolly forget about this a couple of days from now but i need to be honest and today i wanted to be dead.
I feel darkness surrounding me.. it's been there for a long time, trying to reach me, to touch me and even embrace me and i'm not afraid of it anymore, in fact i wanna jump into it, i want to become darkness... it's already started, fate is calling upon me and i shall go.
Now the scary part is to get into darkness without getting lost.. i wouldn't mind staying in there forever, but i have to find my way back.. not for me, but for someone else who has all my promises.. and no matter what i'll always stay true to that person.. always.
And now a long path awaits, i need to bleed all over my white wings to turn 'em red, as red as the color of my thirst.. but i can't forget how to cry... and i won't.. bcuz when the right day comes i'll have to turn my wings white again... so rest in peace my dear angel of light, rest in peace for a while and let me jump into darkness... just wait silently for me to come back and wake u up again.

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I wonder.. why is it that the more i want something the harder it is to get??.. All of this is new to me and i'm all excited and i want everything now! right now!... but life doesn't work that way.. she plays with me and at this moment she only allows me little sips of the sweetness i've found... is it alright to make me wait??.. is it ok to give me pain??.. why do i need to get even stronger for?.. i don't get it..
..And it sooo had to be a she!!!.. this life i mean.. why else would she be such a bitch???.. i wonder...
I suddenly feel i need to escape.. walls are closing in on me.. it's hard to breath, i just need to get out... i need someone to save me... gosh i'm pathetic.. i can't even save myself.. am i really this weak??.. even though i'm getting stronger every minute i still feel weak, funny feeling, it's like i know i can escape, i can do anything but suddenly i see myself trapped and i can't find strenght at all...
My demon told me i have a simple mind (and no, i'm not stupid ^^) if this is having a simple mind, i don't ever wanna have a complicated mind.. to be truth i don't agree.. it's true that my mind can be very simple sometimes, but it's also full of crap.. anger, ideas, memories, pain, questions, loneliness, voices, hope, wishes.. it's like everything in this world is trying to fit in a small box.. and i'm fighting hard for it not to break.. i'm scared though.. but i can't lose.. i just can't and i won't.. i think i need to go to the depths of darkness, embrace it before it embraces me and reborn as the almighty queen.. i hate when my mind plays tricks on me...
Too much shit for today, and i need a smoke.. even though i don't think it's a good idea.. to go out to look at the stars all by myself while i'm feeling like this..
Too much thinking makes you stupid, and i'm living proof of that statement.. ha..
And i'm gone now.. gone to the stars that light up my night.. meh

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Today is a holiday over here.. "memorial day".. i couldn't care less.. the only good thing about it is that i didn't have to work so.. yay!! ^^U
And right now i feel like talking about one of the scariest parts of my personality: my "video-gamer nature" *scream of terror* ... yes, my dears.. (suddenly i feel like an old lady telling a story) <-- omg! i can't believe im such a loser!! ugh
NEways.. yesterday i rented "Devil May Cry 3" reeeeeally cool game, i'm loving it, the only thing i don't like it's ME!.. why do i suck so much when it comes to video games??.. i don't get it.. i try really hard to enjoy the process but all i can do is get really nervous, yell @ the screen, curse the players, press the buttons really hard, complain about the pain in my hand and keep repeating to myself "Man i surely suck @ this game" <-- not only that game.. ALL OF 'EM!!!.. gosh! i can't seem to enjoy playing.. but i have this hypothesis.. it's been a really long time since i played.. i mean.. really play!!!!.. im talking about spending hours and hours in front of the tv hitting the buttons like crazy, so what i think the problem is.. is my lack of practice!!!, i think i can get used to it and then it'll just come to me in a more natural way.. we'll see.
I hope the "SM" i bought yesterday can really do magic and turn me into this video games addict.. i wanna be that way!! ^^U sounds like fun!
And to make things short.. my life is still the same, no improvements @ all, and to be honest, i'm kinda getting sick of looking @ some pathetic behaviors.. i really need someone deep, someone who can THINK
I really want someone who likes to read!! (yes, that's important!), someone who ponders about everything, who wants to learn more, who wants to be a better person, I NEED SOMEBODY DEEP!! i've had it with pathetic idiotic sad lil' boys, u guys can go all to hell! (specially you!)
Maaaaaan! that felt great!!!.. i wish i had the courage to say it aloud.. but nah!.. i'm still dreaming of my stupid perfect world so i won't be able to do it, at least not right now, maybe in the future, who knows? (i'll encourage myself to do it someday)
Enough about me and my crapy thoughts & feelings.. i wish i didn't have to think or feel (who doesn't?).. i wonder if i've really become stronger... sometimes i feel like it sometimes i don't, i'm not so sure, but i do love myslef more, and that's always a good thing =)
Sooooooo, no more talking for today, time to say bye bye... i'll try to write more tomorrow... dunno... whenever i feel like it...i'm gonna start spoling myself and enjoying it!!.. that's what i think i'll do =)


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Saturday.. it used to be such a fun day to me... not anymore... well to be honest.. none of my days is.. but i have to keep going.. keep living.. there's no other way.
Yesterday i went out with Vince, he's such a funny guy, he made me laugh a lot! and i'm glad.. i still can laugh.. although i know for sure i wasn't really laughing, at least my heart wasn't, it's still blue.. i dunno.. this is hard, i really want to smile, to laugh for real, i just wanna be happy, but right now that's impossible, so i just have to wait.. a lil' bit more... that's why i keep repeating to myself MOU SUKOSHI... i need patience... i need peace...
Anyways.. today i watched the 5 last eps of SR.. what can i say? i'm really gonna miss those guys, i had such a great time with 'em.. and today when i saw Harima acting like a neko just like Tenma did.. omg! i was laughing so hard!!! i loved it!.. when he was scratching the desk... that was too much! i wasn't expecting it.. lmaoooo.. can't stop laughing!
Ok.. enough about that... a couple of days ago i watched the HP&GOF movie trailer... I'M SO EXCITED!!! i just can't wait!! When i saw Hermi in her Yule Ball outfit.. i couldn't believe how beautiful she looked, just like i imagined her when i read the book the first time.. and Ron & Harry they look so rawrs!!!!.. i wish i could have 'em at least for 1 night each.. oh and 1 night both of course.. lmaooo.. im such a perv.. but it's not my fault.. they make me feel this way so... yeah! im a perv (and a very proud one) lol ^^U j/k j/k i don't think i'm that sick.. ummmm... heh.. nm
I'm gonna call my mommy in a while.. so i guess this is it for today... i still have loads to do over here... i haven't been able to upload the tag-board and keep adding stuff and pix and all that... i have to keep working... i guess i'll do it later today...
So i'm going now...... man! doing laundry sure sux!! ><

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Ok, this is my first entry and i kinda don't feel like writing.. ummm.. what can i say??... i know right now nothing seems right.. i mean there's a lot i still have to do.. but at least i wanted to say hi!.. so Hello! ^^U my blog is back... yay!!! ^^U altough all my old entries are gone.. deleted 'em by mistake... =(((( so starting from scratch now.. here we go...

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